This Town Is Only Going To Break Your Heart

by Jason Myles Goss

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1.
04:16
Would anyone come to find me if I just left home, if I just let go Would I run through the dark blindly, with no hand to hold, so lost and so cold It was a house that you thought you lived in It was a life you could swear was yours It was a town that you could not run from It was the creaking of the hard wood floors It was the violence and the fury It was a haunted, hellish mind It was a road stop in Missouri It was all you left behind Would anyone come to find me if I just left home, if I just let go Would I run through the dark blindly, with no hand to hold, so lost and so cold It was the blue light of a TV It was trying to forget It was the flashing of your memory It was someone that you met It was a parking lot in Joplin It was sleeping in your car It was three nights with no stopping It was the ash of your cigar Keep your head down Hands where I can see them Make no sudden moves It was a caller at the station It was a woman in Duquesne It was a lapse in concentration It was the sirens and the rain It was a blow out on the freeway It was your hand upon the gun It was the final cries of morning It was all the wrong you've done Keep your head down Keep your head down Keep your head down
2.
They say a man will cry for all he's let go But I think most men cry for reasons they don't know They hold their hands out straight towards that sky above Pushing against the weight of all the dreams they dreamed of Western Ohio, Midwest Pipe and Steel My father drove a trailer truck, kept his hands upon the wheel He would always take the hardest ones for that better wage and a chance for us Caffeine pills, eight hundred miles, through that thick midnight dust Every place I go things are getting harder In every face I know things are getting harder In the eyes of a criminal and in the heart of decent man Things are getting harder man I must have fallen asleep by the TVs blue light I found my father at the kitchen table clutching his keys tight He was wearing that uniform, he had his head hanging down What he drove for all those years was finally going to drive him out of town The older I get the less clear things seem to be When all the things you need the most are the hardest things to see How can you learn to live in darkness, how can you learn to live in the light When it's the same thing that pulls you to your bed that keeps you up all night Every place I go things are getting harder In every face I know things are getting harder In every empty-hearted promise, in every unforgiving hand Things are getting harder man Scrawl my name into that deep dark ground Lay me under in the place where I'm found I am lost, I am home Every place I go things are getting harder In every face I know things are getting harder In every town and every city across a wicked and mighty land Things are getting harder man Things are getting harder man Things are getting harder man
3.
This town is only going to break your heart This window, this house, every crumbling part Oh this town, this town, is going to break your heart Morning will come looking for a fight And your heart will flicker like a drugstore light It was a lucky punch that caught you in the eye It left you so much older now but left no reasons why When I was young I thought about it always When my game was done, would you find me in the hallways of this house, on this street This town is only going to break your heart Growing up is the hardest part Oh this town, this town, is going to break your heart I took what was not given me, I've bloodied up my nose I've fallen out of windows and I've dirtied up my clothes And when my evening comes, and I'm gripped within it's throes Will my mind still be restless from the debt that it owes I'm older now and when I run my hands along your walls They remind me how all the things I've left I've kept closest of all closest of all You were leaning on that street light Asking me if we would turn out alright This town is only going to break your heart You will find at the end, you'll be back at the start Oh this town, this town, is going to break your heart This town, this town, is going to break your heart
4.
03:01
Take my picture, pick me up and spin me around I won't let you down Those steam pipes hissing, we were dancing in the kitchen We were young and wishing that we would never be found And I have this feeling, and it's wild and real and I'm the only one for you and you're the only one for me Cafes and laundromats, maybe never own a Cadillac Though I ain't got much use for that as long as you are here holding my hand Scream it out, hell yes, you're my woman, i'm your man You're my woman, i'm your man Sing it loud and sing it strong, like it's a tambourine you bang upon Oh I've been reading your letters, waiting on this china town bus Locked in the jaws of a hurricane, I saw you stand up and face the rain Oh I'll be leaving I'll be back again, new york city, new york city I'll take that highway ride, my heart is beating It keeps repeating, don't give up, don't give up, don't give up Now I'm walking on these streets alone, so familiar once so unknown I call you up on the telephone because they shut down all the trains coming from Queens Scream it out, hell yes, you're my woman, i'm your man You're my woman, i'm your man As soon as I met you I was on the right track As soon as I met you I was on the right track As soon as I met you I was on the right track As soon as I met you, as soon as I met you
5.
The neighbors keep at it all through the night Budweiser tallboys and a mother daughter fight Another crash of a mirror or a shattering light With no sign of any kind of surrender in sight The trucks and the sirens always keep you awake No matter how much red wine or melatonin that you take Oh this blanket is heavy yet you shiver and shake And you tear at the air like your soul is at stake If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer now I was stranded in Youngstown with the ice and the sand Knee deep in this loneliness that grows in a man I try to carry it on the back of what a boy's dream demands On this motel bed with my head in my hands I have this dream I'm a prisoner in a war that I've fought They bring me out in shackles on the day I've been caught I tip my hat towards the firing squad as they line up their shot With the wild wind taking in the last breath I've got If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer now And I hope you will love me for a long time darling I'm following you home on the only road I know In the winter I would hold you when the radiator broke I'd see your breath in the darkness when you'd laugh at my jokes We'd pretend we were famous, hanging with all kinds of folks And we'd smile all the while neither one of us spoke If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer If you keep going like you're going You ain't going to last much longer now
6.
05:07
There's a world outside that I never knew Far from the streets and what I thought was true Everything you run from will catch up to you There's a world outside Shell of a factory in the center of town Smell of the oil and the squish of the ground I followed the train tracks hoping to be found I was just a kid, I was just a kid Dad had enough when I tattooed up my arms I got busted for fighting, pulling fire alarms Now I work as a cashier at the Cumberland Farms But I'll get out of it, I'll get out of it I hit that straightaway at seventy five Out past the grave stones on Fitzgerald drive I never fit in and I never knew why I tried to never see, what would become of me The wind is blowing and the sun is low These streets are burning in the afterglow They'll grab your ankles and they won't let go They'll keep you safe inside, oh safe inside Oh teacher won't you leave my brother alone It's hard enough with all the problems at home His step-mom's a drunk she disconnected the phone And now I'm all he's got, I'm all he's got Set me free Set me free I am the axles coming loose from the train The preacher kneeling in the mud and the rain The sound of your voice and the scream of your name I am the kitchen light when your parents fight Percoset mothers in their Revlon disguise Dead-in-the-water look still in their eyes With penciled eyebrows of permanent surprise How in the world were they once little girls Sins of the father will be carried upon Down to the river and down to the pond New ones will come after the old ones are gone Will you carry them, can you carry them We keep the brightest things so deep in the dark They map the corners of our curious heart They make us whole and then they tear us apart Is that called growing up or is that giving in Set me free Set me free Set me free Set me free I've been sober since you last came to town Back before they shut the factory down We're getting older, i'm glad to see you around I've got a little girl, I plan to make her proud The years have gone and all I see Is the shell of a man that I was trying to be Was I walking these streets or were they walking me Did they pull me in to their water deep We ran so fast into the undertow We filled our lungs with what we found below That same old story that we all will know One that never changes, it never changes Drive ways, barber shops, daughters and sons nickel and dimes, sleeping pills, TV reruns The summer breeze, first kiss, the quiet sound The police, the troubled kids, the college bound All the wrong you've ever done and all of the right A dark and blissful heartache that visits you each night There's a world outside that you always knew Will you carry it for them, like they carried it for you Set me free Set me free
7.
03:26
I'm another one that wasn't raised right You see me walking in the middle of the night Head against the wall under a gas station light Oh, just another one that wasn't raised right They said my mother was a special case She drank wine and never cleaned up the place Oh daddy if I ever see your face Oh, you're just another one, you're just another son I'll steal your money man, I'll steal your money man Oh, how could you ever really understand Never invited but I never cared Parents would whisper and the policemen stared Like I was never welcome anywhere Oh, another smoking gun, another cross to bear They say she snagged herself a jealous man She stayed in bed and chased her wine with Percodan Oblivion or an iron hand How can you choose one, how can you choose one I asked for love you left me out in the cold How could I ever have been so bold I'm another one that wasn't raised right I'm another one that wasn't raised right You walk though any town on any given night you'll find so many that were never raised right I'm another one that wasn't raised right I'm another one that wasn't raised right I'm another one that wasn't raised right I'm another one that wasn't raised right Nobody's child, an American plight Fast food futures and a parking lot fight My parents yelling over which one is right Brush me under the rug, brush me under the rug
8.
Come around come around come around Come around come around come around And see me when you're lonesome And see me when you're lonesome Arms out wide in a hurricane Smile so bright in the wind and rain You felt so fine and you felt so free As dark as far as your eyes could see The cameras flash when you hit that ring In every wounded heart there's a beautiful thing You felt so lost and you felt so low You were feeling like there was nowhere to go Come around come around come around Come around come around come around And see me when you're lonesome And see me when you're lonesome Its 2 A.M. and there's no one around In the park at night in your hometown You know every street and every traffic stop All the high school bullies are now small town cops You fell in love with the saddest parts You wrote your name in red and you called it art And when you're hanging on by the thinnest thread In the parking lot with an aching head Come around come around come around Come around come around come around And see me when you're lonesome And see me when you're lonesome It's just like you to fall like that It's just like you to fall like that It's just like you to fall like that It's just like you to go down like that It's just like you to plummet all the way on down Come around come around come around Come around come around come around And see me when you're lonesome And see me when you're lonesome See me when you're lonesome See me when you're lonesome
9.
You took a book of matches From the corner bar You said it's getting late I walked you to your car You held your coat so heavy I didn't know how to ask If I could take you out dancing If I could be your man We danced like it was prom night Danced under cardboard stars A far cry from those gym lights Inside these city bars And I knew right then Swaying in your arms That I would never leave you lonesome I would never do you harm You and I both have Roanoke hearts That were ransacked and abandoned and left alone at the start I know you're tired of being lonely Of living like a stranger here Oh won't you be my one and only I promise we won't disappear I lay awake at night I can hear you sleeping And in that morning light I feel the darkness creeping I have a worrisome mind It makes it hard to be free I know one day this world will try To take you away from me And from this heart of a young man To that heart grown old And from the flesh of a young land And to it's blood gone cold You and I both have Roanoke hearts That were ransacked and abandoned and left alone in the dark I know you're tired of being lonely Stuck on the shoreline feeling lost Oh won't you be my one and only I'll pay the ransom, pay the cost We were too young when we left home We were too young when we left home We were too young when we left home We were young You took a book of matches From that bar window Oh maybe we were meant to be More than we were meant to know
10.
When your sky shatters deeply in the silence of your room Keep on fighting for all it is worth When your joyful heart grows weary and it hardens like a stone Keep on fighting for all it is worth When you're feeling like you lost it and don't know how to get it back Keep on fighting for all it is worth And when fear and trepidation stop you frozen in your tracks Keep on fighting for all it is worth When they press you for the answer but it's the question you like best Keep on fighting for all it is worth When you shrink and shrug your shoulders to all the handsome and well dressed Keep on fighting for all it is worth When your head is full of troubles and you don't' know how to let them go Keep on fighting for all it is worth And when you're locked inside the cross hairs, and you're still reeling from the blow Keep on fighting for all it is worth I came into this world kicking and screaming And that is how I plan to leave And when you're banging on a door that never seems to ever open Keep on fighting for all it is worth And when your love is wearing thin, when you're starving, and when you're broken Keep on fighting for all it is worth Keep on fighting for all it is worth Keep on fighting for all it is worth

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released July 11, 2015

All songs written by Jason Myles Goss © 2014
℗ Jeswaldo Sounds (ASCAP)

Produced by Jason Myles Goss, Joel Arnow, and Myles Turney

Engineered and mixed by Myles Turney
Mastered by Alex DeTurk

Additional arranging on “When Youʼre Lonesome,” “Raised Right,” and “If You Keep Going Like Youʼre Going” by David Dawda

Recorded at Strange Weather in Brooklyn, NY
Additional recording at Cowboy Technical Services in Brooklyn, NY,
Big Blue in Hastings-On-Hudson, NY, and Q Division in Somerville, MA

Jason Myles Goss – vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar on “Joplin” and “Raised Right”

Paul Orbell – electric guitar, 12-string electric tenor guitar, baritone guitar, pedal steel, ukulele

Alan Markley – piano, organ, jupiter 6, fender rhodes, wurlitzer, mellotron, vibes, orchestral bells

David Dawda – electric bass

Joel Arnow – drums, percussion, bass guitar on “Iʼm Your Man”

Christian McNeill – additional vocals on “Things Are Getting Harder”

Traci Maynigo – additional vocals on “Iʼm Your Man”

Abbie Gardner – additional vocals on “When Youʼre Lonesome,” “This Town Is Only Going To Break Your Heart,” and “If You Keep Going Like Youʼre Going”

Album design by Sarah Gensert
Photography by Doug Seymour
Website by Jason Kenison

www.jasonmylesgoss.com

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Jason Myles Goss Brooklyn, New York

Jason releases his fifth album entitled, This Town Is Only Going To Break Your Heart, a gutsy and earnest collection of songs which pull together many of Jason's disparate musical influences. It is an album about the towns we love, the towns that shape who we are, and about kids growing up to have kids of their own. It's about learning to carry for them what our parents tried to carry for us. ... more

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